Today's Words Of Glass

I'm not going to lie, Friday I pretty much had a meltdown. The day began with having to register my son for preschool. Registration was at 8:45am, but I had been told that if I wanted to get him into class that I needed to be there ridiculously early, and I mean ridiculously early. I got there at 6:30am and I was already number 16. But as I sat there alone in my cold car, I couldn't help but feel the crushing feeling of just how alone (other than my husband and son) that I am here. I've tried hard to make friends, but I seem to always feel as though I'm the one standing outside the conversation, if that makes sense . I do have my small circle of running friends that I connect with for running/fitness. Although I've been injured so that's left me a little out of the loop, although they have tried their best to keep me connected. Hopefully now that I am recovering, I will be joining them again for some runs. But, without going into too much detail. Friday left...

I'm jealous of those girls who have friends. You know the ones that if they won a day at the spa would have no problem choosing someone to go with them, someone to go shopping with or just do 'girly' things that my husband could care less about. I don't have that. I've been trying for months to get a play date for my son at his speech teacher's suggestion. The sad thing is that I haven't been able to make that happen. I don't have a group of girlfriends. When I moved from MS, I left my best friend behind. We talk often, but it's different. So it's going on six years without a best friend here. I wish I could say that my husband and I spend lots of time together to fill the gaps, but that isn't the reality. He works hard to make a living for our family. We still don't have a babysitter and our son is almost 2 with no family nearby. It was over a year ago that we had one night out to go to dinner. So quality time together is lacking. ...