Sitting still - it's sooooo hard for me to do. It's just not in my nature, my personality, my DNA. But when your 3 year old is sick, as in gasping for air - can't breathe sick, you sit. You sit and comfort. You sit and read. You sit and watch cartoons and videos over and over. You play trucks and cars in-between wiping noses and comforting coughs. You sit on his bed while he sleeps, partly because he asked you to just lay with him for a little while, partly because his breathing isn't comfortable, partly because you want to be there quickly if he needs you. Laundry piles up. Dishes are left unwashed. You sit because right now sitting is the most important 'job' right now - being still and in the moment for your child. It's hard for me to quiet my mind. I'm always in motion, even when I'm sitting still. But I am finding that if I can still my mind, my thoughts and just be present in the moment that is where I can find peace. Oh don...
I hope through my self-reflection, readers will see themselves so that they can pause and think, smile or laugh, or try something new. This is my story...