Today's Words Of Glass

No book, no class, no person that I spoke with prepared me for Motherhood. No matter how many times I heard people say, 'sleep when the baby sleeps', it didn't hit home until I lived what they were talking about. Nothing could have prepared me for the extreme exhaustion and the feelings of inadequacy that I felt. "You will soon learn your baby's cries". Really? Really? Like one day I'm going to wake up and I would know what his screaming was about. I imagined all of these other mothers hearing their little one cry a peep and go, oh, little Freddie must want me to rub his big toe to make him feel better. Well I'm here to tell you that during that time, I tried it all. I fed, changed the diaper even at times when it was dry just in case I had it on too tight or crooked. I rocked, I sang. I read that maybe he was overstimulated so I tried not to give him too much stimulation. Then I read maybe he was bored and wasn't stimulated enough. So I tried more...

It's so hard to believe that my little boy will be 3 months on Saturday. Where did the time go? I can't remember what my life was like without him. Isn't that something? I lived 37 years without him, and within 3 months time I can't remember what life was like before him. Thankfully the gas and colic are so much better. He has his fussy moments as I'm sure all babies do, but crying every time he takes a bottle is getting less and less. Our main obstacle at the moment is that he absolutely hates the carseat. Oh he doesn't cry. He screams. It is a horrible experience for both of us. I am hoping that he outgrows this soon as taking him anywhere is very difficult. I'm trying my best to get back into shape (other than the shape of ROUND). Seems like the only time that I can exercise is VERY early in the morning. I joined a running class that is twice a week at 5:30 which means I must get up at 4:30 on those days. The other days that I exercise (and I try to...