Today's Words Of Glass

Shhhhh... don't tell anyone... but I'm hiding in the basement. Relax, Hubby is home with Lil Man so he's ok . I quietly took my cup of coffee, and stealthy crept down the basement steps. My to-do list is overflowing for today. I really need to get started, but my family is more of a 'slow' starter type of family. I can feel the pressure and stress mounting, and all I wanted was a bacon biscuit from Hardees. I know. Silly right.. but I'm just craving one. However, Hubby nixed that idea. And I could feel my frustration rising.  So I slipped downstairs to get some work done, watch a silly comedy On Demand, and take some deep breathes.  Do you ever quietly slip away for a few moments just to breath? 

It happened... things were going so well... except for the very first day when there were just a few tears because it was new, we haven't had ONE issue with this.. not one... except for today... Today it was raining and he wanted the umbrella. So I let him carry the umbrella, but he didn't want to put it 'down' when we got to the door. He refused to close it. But I tried my best to explain that we can't have an umbrella open inside, and we had to close it. He was satisfied (somewhat) with that as long as he got to carry it. Sigh... I tried to warn him "Mommy is going to go potty, but once we leave the bathroom, Mommy has to carry the umbrella. You can't take it with you to your room". NO MOMMY (oh yes, he is stringing 2 words together now. But it feels like some days those two words are No Mommy over and over and over). I distracted him and discretely ditched the umbrella behind a door at the school. Yes , I just said that I hid my umbrella behind ...

I look in the mirror and what do I see? One stressed out flabby stomached Momma looking back at me. Ever had one of those times in your  life where you are stressed about pretty much every area of your life? Well that's where I find myself this week. Exercise: I decided that I needed to up my cardio to try to burn more calories and increase my endurance. So, what do I do? I up my cardio. What happens? I start having some issues with my knees. I had to actually go get a brace and take a few days off from exercise. I've got in a few runs this week, but they haven't been the runs that I had hoped to get in. And my cardio has decreased instead of increased. So I've burned less calories than more.  Nutrition: For several days I watched exactly what I ate, and stayed within my calorie 'range'. I had even lowered my calories in an attempt to drop a few pounds. What happened? I gained 2 pounds.  Freelance work: I am very thankful to have the work, but w...