I'm not going to lie. Early today, I was a mess. I'm a very 'scheduled' person. And I'm currently at a place in my life of real uncertainty about some situations and it's totally stressing me out. I'm trying to 'get a grip'. But when Lil Man didn't nap today, I loaded us up in the car and drove to Sonic.
He fell asleep on the way home. So I found myself sitting in the car, in front of the house, eating a ginormous Oreo blast. Who knew a 'large' was so large. But there I sat, stuffing my face full of sugary gooeyness.
Two hours later, I'm irritated that I did that because I'm in 'training'. Granted, I'm just running a 10 miler, but a race is still a race. And my training runs may be difficult to get through this weekend with my lack of dietary nutrition these last couple of days. I should probably come clean that today my breakfast was pretty much brownie batter donuts.
But, my internet friends, just because today has been a bust especially with nutrition, it doesn't mean that the rest of the day has to be and certainly not tomorrow. I'm not quite ready to verbalize what I have in mind, but I do plan to make some hopefully lasting changes.
See, I need a change - one that I can control right now. And my problem is will power and really motivation. I know that if I wanted it 'bad enough', I would have made the necessary changes (in the past). So, I'm hoping that this lack of control over other situations in my life will motivate me enough to take control over my lack of nutrition and make some life long changes. We'll see. I'll keep you posted.
This week has definitely had it's ups and downs. Here's a little pic to recap some of my week. (These moments would be the happier moments ha). I chose not to document me stuffing my face, or trying to reason with a toddler who was being unreasonable.
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He fell asleep on the way home. So I found myself sitting in the car, in front of the house, eating a ginormous Oreo blast. Who knew a 'large' was so large. But there I sat, stuffing my face full of sugary gooeyness.
Two hours later, I'm irritated that I did that because I'm in 'training'. Granted, I'm just running a 10 miler, but a race is still a race. And my training runs may be difficult to get through this weekend with my lack of dietary nutrition these last couple of days. I should probably come clean that today my breakfast was pretty much brownie batter donuts.
But, my internet friends, just because today has been a bust especially with nutrition, it doesn't mean that the rest of the day has to be and certainly not tomorrow. I'm not quite ready to verbalize what I have in mind, but I do plan to make some hopefully lasting changes.
See, I need a change - one that I can control right now. And my problem is will power and really motivation. I know that if I wanted it 'bad enough', I would have made the necessary changes (in the past). So, I'm hoping that this lack of control over other situations in my life will motivate me enough to take control over my lack of nutrition and make some life long changes. We'll see. I'll keep you posted.
This week has definitely had it's ups and downs. Here's a little pic to recap some of my week. (These moments would be the happier moments ha). I chose not to document me stuffing my face, or trying to reason with a toddler who was being unreasonable.
But this picture is a reminder that with the downs there have been lots of ups.
And that God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. (self control) 2 Timothy 1:7
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