Not So Nervous Breakdown

For those of you concerned about my possible nervous breakdown last week, and my mental state, rest assured I am OK. (and no this isn't the cake icing talking). Although I am eating cake icing as I type this. Yup, straight up on a spoon from the container.

I needed to work through some things and get to the root of what was troubling me so. And I did.

I've come to the conclusion that doing the same thing over and over and over and expecting different results truly is crazy. So I'm making some modifications. I'm trying, notice that I said trying to stop seeking approval of others for my every action. Granted, it is a work in progress. But I'm trying; it's a start.

I've decided to take care of my family's needs, but I'm also taking my needs into consideration. (hello, cake icing! just kidding).

So I'm rearranging my schedule. I'm keeping Lil Man's needs (and Hubby's) in perspective, but I'm also adding my needs into the equation. And you know what? It works. I can take care of their needs without sacrificing my own.

So I hit a rough patch. I skinned my shins. I got some bumps and bruises. I even rolled around a little.

But then I sat up.

Took a look around.

Shook the negative thoughts out of my brain.

I stood up.

Dusted myself off.

And I smiled.

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